“Have the Courage to Chart Your Own Course, for F*cks Sake!”
I heard the title of this post clearly as I again decided to suppress the emotion that what I was doing was not for me. “I need to make money,” I said to myself. Doing this work is the responsible thing to do. I reassured myself as the emotion intensified. Have the courage to chart your own course; FOR FUCK’s SAKE!!! I heard the voice in my head say louder and more straightforward than the time before. I began to cry. Irritated, miserable, and dying inside, I slowly worked through the task at hand. Feeling a part of the improved version of Charlene fall to the ground and hearing the shatter, the flow of my tears intensified. I had officially entered the Twilight Zone.
Since I started this blog, I have talked about the freedom to be you. I am now learning that it takes courage to chart your course. It takes guts to say No when the logical answer is Yes. The need for approval and the fear of losing can enormously influence your decision-making, but those two things can also be the nail in the coffin of your life’s purpose. They can be the things that keep you from being authentically you and leaving your purpose in the graveyard.
News Flash: Your way is the right way. If it is not, trust me, you will learn. The lessons from doing it out of alignment will put you on the path that is right for you. Do the scary thing. Get to know yourself. On the other side is the road to your destiny.
I’ve had so many people tell me that I play small because I cannot see myself. It is impossible to see myself when I’ve built my foundation on the perception of others. Two years ago, I took the leap to learn about me. The leap was huge and filled me with fear. I am not going to lie. But, I believe that was the fog sent to scare me from truly realizing my full potential. Amanita told me that I would find myself when I decided to let go of fear, and as I write this, I see that she is absolutely right.
So, I am doing just that. I will be strong and courageous while charting my own course. I’ll let you know how it goes.
Love,
Charlene